Yes! It's that time of year - Panto time!! I know I am truly back from Afghanistan now that rehearsals for our Pantomime have started. It's really strange that I've been home for eight months, but it is only now that it is really starting to sink in. I've been busy with a play, then a musical with my AmDram group, I'm working full time and of course there's my Aerial Gymnastics - but it is the start of Panto rehearsals that has made it real.
First rehearsal last night was 'interesting'. The casting went as I anticipated and I am pleased to say that I am in the dancing chorus. I have never attempted to join in with the dancers before because of my weight, but thanks to Aerial I feel I've lost a sufficient amount to be able to deport myself gracefully! Notwithstanding of course, any weight loss over the next few months. I'm also in the singing chorus, but for me that is not so much of a challenge as it is a bit of fun.
The dancing is the thing. I have not danced properly in years as I've felt pretty self-conscious about my weight. I am sure part of that was connected with my low self-esteem. I know I have always been an accomplished dancer, but it is a little frightening returning to it after so many years. But if I don't do it now, I don't think I ever will. I'm most definitely not as slender as I was when I was younger, but I am hoping that with society's views having altered so much over the years, that won't be an issue. In fact, it was probably only ever an issue in my eyes...
Not entirely sure what dancing we are going to be doing - the only one I'm sure of is a tap number! That will most definitely stretch my abilities, as it is the discipline that has evolved the most, especially recently. The style is so much looser now and definitely more relaxed, so I am going to have to fight the inclination to 'present', with a straight spine, stretched neck, shoulders pushed back, etc. But isn't that really what my journey is all about? Working with the hand I have been dealt and turning it into something positive? Challenge accepted!!
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